How To Survive The Loss Of A Love

Fifty-one:

Surround Yourself with Goodness and Light

• Whenever you think of it, ask that you be surrounded by all the Goodness and Light you can imagine.

• "Good" is such an obvious thing, it's difficult to define. We all know what we consider the best, the highest, the greatest, the goodest. You can think of "Good" as in "The Good Earth," or "Good" as "God" with an extra "o!" added.

• Light is a concept that seems to permeate almost every religious belief and spiritual practice. The Light of Nature to the Light of the Holy Spirit; the Light of the Sun to the Light of the Son.

• Whenever you call upon this Goodness and Light, it's a good idea to ask that it do its work for your highest good and the highest good of all concerned. In this way, our own personal preferences of the moment are not competing with whatever higher goo d may be planned for us.

• Breathe deeply of Goodness and Light. Let it fill every cell of your body. Breathe it into any areas (mental, emotional or physical) in need of healing.

• Asking for Goodness and Light to surround, fill, protect and heal you, for your highest good and the highest good of all concerned, need not take long--a few seconds at most (as long as it took you to read this sentence).

• It takes so little time, and the potential rewards are so great, we consider it a good investment in your healing and growing.

Life is
not a
struggle.
It's a wiggle.

Fifty-two:

Pray, Meditate, Contemplate

• Whatever methods of prayer, meditation or contemplation you know--or would like to know better--now is a good time to use them.

• When we become still, the pain may resurface. That's fine. Let it be there,and continue with your inner work. Hurt that arises during prayer, meditation or contemplation is healing in nature.

• When praying, we suggest you ask, primarily, for the strength to endure, the power to heal and the wisdom to learn.

I missed you last night.
I missed you this morning.
I meditated.
I no longer miss you.
I love you.

Fifty-three:

Keep a Journal

• You might find keeping a journal or diary helpful.

• Putting your thoughts and emotions on paper is a good way of getting things out, of setting them in order.

• Don't add any "I will make an entry every day or else" rules to your journal keeping. Write when you feel like it, and when you don't, forget it.

• (The various authors of this tome have, at one time or another, attempted to keep journals. Only one of us [the compulsive one] thus far has succeeded for more than a month.)

I write only
until I cry,
which is why so few poems
this month
have been
completed.
It's just
that I...

Fifty-four:

There Is a Beauty in Sadness

• There is a certain beauty in sadness (and here we mean genuine sadness, not self-pity).

• We cannot elaborate upon this further (not even the corn-fed poet in our midst dares do that), but we thought it was worth mentioning. If you are enjoying the beauty of being sad, it's perfectly all right.

you left
traces
of your self
all over my room:
a poem scribbled in the
margin of a book
a corner of a page
turned over in another book
your smell on my blanket.
where are you tonight?
in whose room are you leaving
traces?
are you perhaps
discovering
the traces of my self
I left on your soul?

Fifty-five:

Let Yourself Heal Fully

• Let the healing process run its full course.

• A time of convalescence is very important.

• For a while, don't become involved in an all-consuming passionate romance or a new project that requires great time and energy.

• Just follow your daily routine--and let yourself heal.

• If you do not allow the hurt to heal completely, you may find emotional over-sensitivity the result. You might flinch at every new encounter.

• Let yourself heal.

It will never be the same.

I will never be the same.
You came.
We loved.
You left.
I will survive until I survive.
And one day, I will
find
myself alive again.
And another day
another's path will
run parallel to mine
for awhile.
And yet another day,
you will return,
and I will see
It is not the same.

Fifty-six:

Affirm Yourself

• To "affirm" is to "make firm." Make firm the loving, healing and positive thoughts you have about yourself and your life.

• An affirmation usually begins "I am" and is always stated in the present tense. Claim what you want as though you already have it. "I am healthy, wealthy and happy," not "I want to be healthy, wealthy and happy."

• Say aloud, over and over, these, or any other affirmations you may create:

• "I am alive. I will survive."

• "I am healing."

• "I am surrendering to the process of healing."

• "I am healing fully."

• "I am healing naturally."

• "I am gentle with myself."

• "My heart is mending."

• "I am stronger."

• "I have the courage to grow."

• "I am grateful for so much."

• "I am patient with my healing."

• "My patience will outlast my pain."

I am
the nicest
thing I could
ever do for
myself.

Fifty-seven:

Visualization

• Visualizing is imagining the outcome of something--what the future will be.

• We all visualize--often. We consider the future, and envision it either positively or negatively. Our problem occurs when we negatively visualize--imagining a future of lack, loneliness and despair.

• Take a moment and visualize a positive outcome. Imagine yourself healed, happily alive, thriving, loving and loved.

• Use as many of your senses as you can. See, feel, hear, taste and smell your joyful, nurturing future.

• Start slowly--a minute or so at first. Then build--visualization by visualization, day by day--imagining your positive future for longer and longer periods of time.

• Soon, your present will be the positive future you imagine now. That--or something greater, of course--for your highest good and the highest good of all concerned.

When we are
together
we are one,
when we are
apart
each is
whole.
Let this be our dream.
Let this be our goal.

Fifty-eight:

Use Color to Lift Your Spirit

• You've probably noticed that certain colors have certain effects. We feel different walking into a dimly lit black room than we do walking into a brightly lit yellow room.

• As much as possible, stay in the "up" spectrum of colors--yellow, orange, red and pastels.

• Also, surround yourself with green--be it clothing, food, furniture or plants. Green is soothing and seems to promote healing and growth.

• And stay away from black and blue--you've been bruised enough already.

Color
me
healed.

Fifty-nine:

Laugh!

• Laughter is one of the most healing activities around.

• Whatever it is that makes you laugh, do it.

• Rent a video, buy a comedy tape, read a funny book, talk to people who make you laugh. Ask your friends to call you with anecdotes, stories and jokes they may have, hear or meet.

• And, yes, it's OK to laugh about your loss.

• There is a fine line between tragedy and comedy. Seeing the humor in your loss, your reaction to the loss and even your memories about what was lost, can be healing.

• You are not being disloyal to that which you loved by seeing the humor in him, her or it.

• Humor can, in fact, honor the relationship.

Why must I
always fall for
chicken shits
on
ego trips?

Sixty:

As Healing Continues

• As your healing continues, you will find

• your thinking harpened

• your judgement sounder and more reliable

• your concentration and memory improved

• a desire to be with others more

• a desire to do more for others

• your feelings become more expansive, optimistic and alive

• You'll feel stronger, more content and independent.

• You'll want to get out, get moving and try new things.

A new morning
of a
new life
without you.
So?
There will be others
much finer,
much mine-er.
And until then,
there is me.
And because I treated
you
well,
I like me better.
Also, the sun rises.

GROWING

and
through
all the tears
and the
sadness
and the
pain
comes the
one thought
that can
make
me internally
smile again
I
have
loved.

Sixty-one:

You're Stronger Now

• You have experienced a loss, encountered it with courage (at least some of the time) and have survived.

• You've learned that

• You can survive.

• The pain does lessen.

• Much of what you feared did not come to pass.

• Healing does occur.

• But don't just settle for surviving and healing. Use this experience as a springboard for greater growth.

the last day of my
loving you is
at hand.
in hand,
a pen, writing one of
the last poems
exclusively yours.
my pain fades,
as autumn did.
winter is too intense
a season to miss
someone in
the last leaf
fell today.
the first snow
falls tonight.

Sixty-two:

Let Go of the Loss and Move On

• At a certain point (and that point differs from loss to loss and from person to person), it's time to leave the loss behind and move on.

• Don't be surprised if you actually miss the process of mourning. Some people mourn the loss of the mourning process.

• Let go of the past. Look forward to the future.

• You will, of course, occasionally look over your shoulder, but, for the most part, focus on the future and keep moving ahead.

• Let yourself enjoy the excitement of uncertainty.

I shall miss loving you.
I shall miss the
Comfort
of your embrace.
I shall miss the
Loneliness
of waiting for your
calls that never came.
I shall miss the Joy
of our comings,
and Pain
of your goings.
and,
after a time,
I shall miss
missing
loving
you.

Sixty-three:

Forgiveness Is Letting Go

• To forgive does not just mean to pardon, it means to let go.

• Jesus, probably the greatest teacher of forgiveness in history ("Forgive them, Father, for they know not what they do"), used the Aramaic word shaw when he spoke of forgiveness. Shaw means "to untie."

• If you are tied to a rock that is pulling you down in the water, all you have to do is forgive it (untie it) and swim toward the light.

• When you forgive the past, you untie yourself from the past, and are free.

• To forgive also means to be for (in favor of) giving (to deliver a gift). When you forgive, you affirm that you are in favor of giving.

• To whom do you give? Another? Sometimes. Yourself? Always. When you release another to go his or her own way, you free yourself to do the same.

• The process of giving yourself this gift of freedom is forgiveness.

The forgetting
is difficult.
The remembering,
worse.

Sixty-four:

Forgive the Other Person

• Whenever you can, as soon as you can, forgive the other person.

• You do this not for the other person, you do this for yourself--your peace of mind and the quality of your future relationships.

• A simple, but remarkably effective, technique of forgiveness is this:

• First say, "I forgive ___________ (the person, event or thing that caused your loss) for ____________ (what they did to cause the loss)." That's the first part of forgiveness.

• Then say, "I forgive myself for judging ___________ (same person, event or thing) for ___________ (same transgression)."

• The second part of forgiveness--forgiving yourself for judging another--is important, but often overlooked. Your judgement of the other person's action is what hurt you emotionally. When you forgive his or her action, you must also forgive your judgement of his or her action.

• It may take many repetitions of the above sentences to untie the many layers of transgressions and judgements--but keep at it. You can, and will, be free.

The love
I give you
is second hand.
I feel it first.

Sixty-five:

Forgive Yourself

• Whenever you can, as soon as you can, forgive yourself.

• Whatever errors, transgressions, failings, weaknesses, infractions or mistakes you feel you made to cause the loss--real or imagined--forgive yourself for those.

• The process is the same as forgiving another. Surround yourself with Goodness and Light and say, "I forgive myself for __________ (the failing)." Then add, "I forgive myself for judging myself for _________ (the same failing)."

• Again, the most powerful part of the process is forgiving yourself for having judged yourself for whatever you did (or didn't do). Who (besides parents, teachers, society and nearly everyone else) said you must be perfect?

• Forgive yourself for being human, forgive yourself for judging your humanness, and move on.

• A great book on forgiving yourself is Making Peace with Yourself by Harold H. Bloomfield, M.D. with Leonard Felder, P h.D. You can find it at your local bookstore.

At a critical moment I said:
"I would rather you go
and regret your going
than stay
and regret your staying."
Some day I'm going to
learn to keep my mouth
shut.

Sixty-six:

Take Stock of the Good

• Now that the pain is less, understanding can grow.

• You may begin seeing change and separation as a natural, inevitable and necessary part of life.

• The relationship brought you a great deal of good (that's why you missed it so terribly when it was no longer there). Much of it is still with you. Now is the time to take stock of that good:

• He taught you to appreciate good food.

• She occasioned your interest in skiing.

• That job taught you a great deal about computers.

• You are a better person for having loved.

Sifting through the
ashes of our relationship
I find many things
to be grateful for.
I can say "thank you" for
warm mornings,
cold protein drinks,
and all the love you have ever offered
another.
I can say "thank you"
for being there,
willing to be shared.
I can say "thank you" for
the countless poems you were
the inspiration for and the
many changes you were
catalyst to.
But how, in my grasp of
the English language,
faltering as it is,
can I ever
thank
you
for
Beethoven

Sixty-seven:

You Are a Better Person for Having Loved

• You cared.

• You became involved.

• You learned to invest yourself.

• Your interaction permitted loving and caring.

Even though you lost, you are a better person for having loved.
You were the best of loves,
you were the worst of loves
and you left behind several
unintended gifts:
Through you I re-examined my
need (uh, desire?) for
one significant other to
share my life. You commanded in
me an unwilling (but
probably much-needed)
re-evaluation of self, behavior patterns
relationshipping, & a corresponding change
in attitudes; i.e. growth
I'm nicer to people.
I'm more in touch with my feelings
the things and persons around me, life.
And, of course, a scattering of poems
(the best of poems, the worst of poems)
that never would have happened
without your disruptions.
Thanks.

.

Sixty-eight:

Praise Yourself for the Courage to Relate

• You are a richer, deeper, wiser person for having invested in a relationship--even if that relationship ended in loss.

• Praise yourself for the courage to relate.

• "Courage" is based on the French word for "from the heart." It took great heart to care, to be vulnerable, to love. Praise, honor and celebrate your heart.

• Would we dare quote something as clichd as, "It is far, far better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all"? Of course we wouldn't.

• Now's the time to see what lessons you learned from your loss, and what possible good is contained within the loss.

Love,
no matter what
you feel it for,
is still love.
The object does not
change the emotion.
But the emotion
quite often
changes the object.

Sixty-nine:

Changes

• A new chapter in your life has begun, and is by now well under way.

• Know that you have the ability to make the changes this new chapter requires.

• Be prepared to make an adjustment, perhaps two or three.

• Now is a good time to start experimenting with new behaviors, new activities, new ways of fulfilling the day-to-day needs that are still unattended.

• It will take courage, but it is exciting.

• This might even be fun!

The need you
grew
still remains.
But less and less
you seem the way
to fill that need.
I am.

Seventy:

Start Anew

• Be open.

• Be open to new people, places, ideas, experiences.

• It's time to move far beyond the "I'll never love again--love only brings pain" attitude.

• Do your best to

• Remain trusting.

• Maintain a lively curiosity.

• Be open to learn.

• Visit new places.

• Now's the time to

• Redecorate (or at least clean) your apartment.

• Buy (or make) some new clothes.

• Learn--whatever it is you've always wanted to know (pottery or politics)

• Choose (and pursue) new goals.

The difference between
love and loving
is the difference between
fish and fishing.

Seventy-one:

Invite New People into Your Life

• Now is the time to make new friends, associates, colleagues.

• Attend meetings, concerts, plays, social events--any public gathering of kindred souls. (It's fine to go alone.)

• Meet your neighbors.

• Find in yourself the courage to introduce yourself to anyone--even a total stranger.

• When making new acquaintances, ask questions that require more than a "yes" or "no" answer.

• Use "how" and "why" questions rather than only "what" or "who."

• Offer to drive people home or invite them out for a cup of coffee.

• Carry paper and pen to share phone numbers. You might even have calling cards printed. (Whatever happened to calling cards?)

I am not
a total
stranger.
I am a
perfect
stranger.

Seventy-two:

Develop New Interests. . .

• Now's the time to develop new interests.

• Archery's always held some fascination? How about water polo? Marco Polo? Piano solo? Explore whatever or wherever you want to explore--on video or in person.

• Is it time to get that personal computer?

• A new language? Brush up on an old language? (English, perhaps?) How about a course in bookkeeping--or bee keeping?

• Gardening? Sewing? Canning? Auto maintenance? Garment weaving? Gourmet cooking? Metal shop?

• Read a book. Take a class. Learn--and above all do--something new.

• Yes, we can even recommend a book on computers! It's Peter McWilliams' Personal Computer Book and it's available at local bookstores, or by calling 1-800-LIFE-101.

Seventy-three:

. . .But Don't Forget the Old Interests

• Don't forget about the old interests and activities you've let lapse.

• Rediscover the ones that gave you a special sense of achievement, excitement, joy.

• In choosing new and old interests, be sure to intersperse those activities which require people and those which you do best alone.

Seventy-four:

Groups

• Perhaps you feel shy, or simply don't want to make new contacts on your own. If so, groups may be the answer.

• There are literally hundreds of groups you can join. Check the Yellow Pages under "Clubs," "Associations," "Fellowships," etc. You can join a group to learn something, to travel, to meet people, to celebrate common interests--there are so many possibi lities.

• Church-sponsored groups are readily available.

• There are many groups that cater especially to the newly-single-again individual. They include

• Parents without Partners

• The Singletons

• Singles Dating Club

• Over-30 Club

• The Toastmasters' Club helps develop speaking skills that may be helpful in expressing yourself to others.

• Adult education classes, "Y" groups, and programs sponsored by The American Youth Hostels offer opportunities not only for learning new skills, but for meeting others in a comfortable environment.

Someday we are going to be lovers.
Maybe married.
At the very least, an affair.
What's your name?

Seventy-five:

Self-Improvement Anyone?

• It may be time to change (one at a time, please) something you'd like to change about yourself:

• Go on a diet.

• Stop smoking.

• Stop drinking.

• Begin an exercise program.

• Seek professional help if necessary, and/or join a recognized group (AA, Weight Watchers, etc.). Be gentle with yourself, but set a realistic goal and then achieve it.

• At the same time, accentuate your positives. Be even more

• tolerant

• trusting/trustworthy

• helpful

• giving

• concerned

• loving

• yourself

• A great book to read is LIFE 101: Everything We Wish We Had Learned About Life in School--But Didn't by Peter McWilliams. Available at your local bookstore, or by calling 1-800-LIFE-101.

Maturity
is a very
magical
thing
Now you see it,
now you don't.

Seventy-six:

Your Words Have Power

• You should not use "should."

• Never use "never."

• We wish you wouldn't use "wish."

• Hopefully you'll give up "hope."

• Maybe you'd be better off without "maybe."

• You must not use "must."

• Things are seldom black or white. We live in a world of "often," "sometimes" and "seldom." Using those words gives those around you more freedom--more freedom to be themselves, to be human and simply to be.

• And be sure to give the same freedom to yourself.

I've heard a lot
about the dangers of
living beyond one's means.
What worries me, however,
is my current habit of
living beyond my meanings.

Seventy-seven:

Think "Both/And" Rather Than "Either/Or"

• Your relationship with whomever or whatever you loved was both "good" and "bad." Such is life.

• Life is not either good or bad. Life includes both good and bad.

• Life is not lived in one extreme, struggling to eliminate the other. Life is the continuum between the extremes.

• After a loss, people tend to dwell on the darker side of life and long for a time when everything will be "perfect" again.

• Life was never perfect. Life always included both perfect and imperfect. It always has, and it always will.

• Welcome to life.

Perfect joy and
perfect sorrow.
One following another,
following another.
The poles, the extremes,
of emotional life, and
all points in between.
Following one another.
Following one another.
Gently up, gently down,
like the ocean under a boat.

Seventy-eight:

The Freedom to Choose

• Enjoy your freedom.

• You're in control now.

• Make the most of the ability to choose

• where

• what

• how

• when

• why

• who

• You can make (and make well) the necessary decisions to

• sort

• clean

• rearrange

• discard

• acquire

• You are bringing order into your world again. You can choose the world you want to have around you.

• A great book on choosing goals and fulfilling dreams is DO IT! Let's Get Off Our Buts by Peter McWilliams. Available (guess where!) at your local bookstore, or by calling 1-800-LIFE-101.

I don't want
to build my
life around you,
but I do want to
include you
in the building
of my life.

Seventy-nine:

It's OK to Ask

• Seek the support of others in achieving your goals.

• Do not, however, depend upon their approval or assistance before you move toward your goal.

• If they don't want to go to Hawaii with you, aloha alone.

It is a risk to love.
What if it doesn't
work out?
Ah,
but what if it does?

Eighty:

It's OK for Others to Say No

• Rejection isn't personal.

• When people say "no" to you, they're merely saying "yes" to some other portion of their life. You have nothing to do with it. Therefore, there's no need to take it personally.

• When you learn to allow others to say "no" and not become upset by it, you get two rewards: (1) you are less upset, and (2) you tend to ask others more often for what you want. (If you don't experience "no" as a rejection, then there's no fear of reje ction.)

• The more people you ask, the more chances you have of getting what you want.

• In baseball, the very best hitters only get three hits every ten times at bat. And guess who has the all-time strike-out record? Babe Ruth.

• If one-third the people you ask say yes, you are doing very well. Even if only one in 100 says yes, that's one more than you would have had without asking.

I don't know
how to lose.
That's part of the problem.
I don't know
how to win, either.
That's the other part.

Eighty-one:

It's OK for Others to Say Yes

• Some people fear acceptance more than rejection.

• This usually springs from a lack of self worth. When we don't feel worthy, we think things like, "You'll go out with me? I thought you had good taste," or ask questions such as, "I'm hired? What's wrong with the company?"

• The secret of self-esteem is to do good things, and remember that you've done them.

• Learn to accept acceptance.

• When people say "You look lovely," "That was beautiful," "I appreciate your skill," "You make me feel great," take it in.

help me.
show me that
I can love with
out
fears, frustrations,
falsehoods, hesitations.
show me the
face of
god.

Eighty-two:

Fear Can Be a Friend

• When we label an emotion "fear," we tend to back away from the action causing the fear (basically, anything new).

• If we label the same emotion "excitement" or "adventure," we have the energy to move into the new activity with renewed vigor and enthusiasm.

• Fear is the energy to do your best in a new situation.

• There is no need to "get rid of" fear. We need only reprogram our attitude toward fear. If we treat it as a friend, it makes a great companion on our explorations of the new.

The world is good.
I feel whole & directed.
Touch my Joy with me
I cannot keep
my smiles
in single file.

Eighty-three:

The Antidote for Anxiety Is Action

• Worried about something?

• Do something about it.

• Take a physical action to correct, solve, communicate or educate yourself about whatever concerns you.

• The action may be as simple as a phone call, writing a letter, taking a walk or reading a book.

• You may discover there is nothing to worry about. If you discover there is something to worry about, use worry as the energy to make an improvement.

We are such
good friends
you & I.
After being
with you
for only
a little while
I no longer
relate to
sadness.

Eighty-four:

Postpone Procrastination

• We're going to write this chapter real soon.

• Honest.

• We promise.

• Cross our hearts.

• Tomorrow.

• Thursday at the latest.

I have this
great poem on
procrastination--
I'll send it to you
real soon.
As soon as
I write it
down.

Eighty-five:

The Past

• Remember: the healing process continues even while you're growing.

Memories may come drifting back one Sunday morning or when "our song" is played on the radio.

• Expect this. It doesn't mean you're sinking back into depression, it's just the ebb and flow of healing and growing.

• Be with the feeling. Know that it soon will pass.

I know our
time together
is no more.
Then why do
words
come to mind
that call you
back?
Why do I plan
lifetimes
that include
you?
Why do I
torture
myself
with love
I never felt
while you were
here?

Eighty-six:

Anniversaries

• You may experience the loss in miniature when anniversaries, birthdays or other significant reminders appear.

• Know that your recovery from the pain of such reminders will be faster, and that all you've learned to survive, heal and grow the first time around will be just as valuable the second time.

• The third anniversary will hurt less; the fourth, even less.

• Note the dates of upcoming anniversaries. Plan activities that are particularly enjoyable, uplifting and comforting on those days.

• Eventually, all you'll remember is the loving.

It's been two years
since we talked last.
You lead a church choir
somewhere.
The pauses between your
sentences are longer.
More pregnant--or so
you would like the world
to believe. They make me
as uncomfortable as
ever.
"A person out of the past"
you keep saying, unwilling
to accept my present.
Questions answered by questions.
Statements questioned by silence.
Your ambiguity and my ambivalence
clash again,
for the last time.

Eighty-seven:

Solitude

• You can enjoy being alone again.

• Explore and appreciate solitude.

• "Alone" does not mean "lonely."

• Solitary pursuits can be

• delight-fille

• restful

• exciting

• in joy able

• a prelude to creativity

• spending time with the most important person in your life--you

• fun

• Enjoying yourself is a prerequisite to genuinely enjoying others.

The difference between
"a1one"
and
"a11 one"
is
1
(me),
and a little space.

Eighty-eight:

Creativity

• You'll find yourself once again remarkable in touch with your creative energy. Do something with it.

• What do you do that is creative? Write? Sing? Dance? Act? Bake cherry pies? Give massages?

• Well, whatever it is or they are, DO

• For example, did you know that you are a poet? Prove it to yourself. Sit down with a pencil and paper. (Pen and paper will do.) Find out what you're feeling, find a though or group of words that fits that feeling and write them down.

• Now, instead of writing the words this way,

write
them
this way.
Put words that you want to
stand
out
on separate lines.
Forget
every
thing
"they" taught you about
poetry
in
school.

Do this three or four times. Keep it up. You'll get a poem. Honest.

Rule 1: Line for line, poetry need not rhyme.

Rule 2: Honest, clear expression of a fully felt experience is what poetry is all about.

Eighty-nine:

Enjoy!

• Be happy, cheerful, joyful, delighted, pleased--as often as you can, as much as you can, for as long as you can.

• You may feel some guilt about being joyful after a loss. Know that you are not being disloyal to the love you lost by moving on with your life--and moving on must certainly include joy.

This poem
is a kiss
for your mind.

Ninety:

Appreciation

• As you grow, you will begin to regain your sense of appreciation, of awe. The sense of childlike wonder, which was lost to you for a while, will return.

• Enjoy it.

• Sunsets and children laughing. City streets and country roads. The wonder of "this time called life."

• The Wonder Years need never end.

The cosmic dance
to celestial melodies,
free form within
patterns of precise
limitations.
The painting I know
so well. The canvas
;I want to learn,
and, perhaps,
someday,
the artist.

Ninety-one:

Do Something for Someone Else

• If you begin feeling sorry for yourself (not genuine sorrow, but the "poor put-upon me" variety), the best way to cure this is to do something for someone else.

• Drive someone to the grocery store.

• Tune a friend's car.

• Volunteer to take calls at the local suicide prevention center, rap line, hot line or similar service.

• Visit someone in a hospital--anyone.

• Wash windows or do housework for an older person.

• Read to the blind.

• Talk to the lonely.

• Listen to the ignored.

• Giving is the greatest gift you can give yourself.

• As the saying goes, "Don't return a favor; pass it on." Now's the time to pass on all the good favors you received during your time of loss.

In taking,
I get.
In giving,
I receive.
In being loved,
I am filled full.
In loving,
I am fulfilled.
The greatest gift
is to fill a
need unnoticed.

Ninety-two:

Appreciate Your Growth

• Having weathered a crisis, expect to discover

• a stronger you

• a different you

• a more evolved you

• You're changing and growing into

• a happier you

• a more joyful you

• an independent you

The world outside
is a mirror,
reflecting the
good & bad
joy & sorrow
laughter & tears
within me.
Some people are
difficult mirrors
to look into,
but you
I look at you
and I see
all the beauty
inside of me.

Ninety-three:

Your Happiness Is Up to You

• Happiness depends on your attitude toward what happens to you, not on what happens to you.

• It may sound revolutionary, but problems don't have to make you unhappy.

• This runs counter to our cultural programming--which tells us we must react in certain negative ways to certain "negative" events.

• Nonetheless, happiness is always our choice. That is a reality of life.

• Stop waiting for Prince Charming, Cinderella, more money, the right job, total health or anything else before you're happy.

• Stop waiting.

• Choose satisfaction.

• Be happy.

• Now.

I am worthy.
I am worthy of my life and
all the good that is in it.
I am worthy of
my friends and their friendship.
I am worthy of spacious skies, amber waves
of grain and purple mountain majesties
above the fruited plain. (I am worthy, too,
of the fruited plain.)
I am worthy of a degree of happiness
that could only be referred to as
"sinful" in less enlightened times.
I am worthy of creativity,
sensitivity and appreciation.
I am worthy of peace of mind, peace on Earth,
peace in the valley and a piece of the action.
I am worthy of God's presence in my life.
I am worthy of my love.

Ninety-four:

• Celebrate!

• Throw a Survival Celebration party.

• Invite everyone who helped in your survival, healing and growth. Ask each of them to bring a friend (a great way to meet new people).

• If a party is not your style, be sure to acknowledge the help and support you received from others. Send thank-you notes, flowers, gifts or whatever you find appropriate.

• Remember the value of the help you received when you come across others in need.

• And, especially, give yourself a pat on the back for a job well done.

• You've been through losing, surviving, healing and growing.

• Now it's time for celebrating.

CONGRATULATIONS!

My love and
God's Light
be with you
in all that
you are and
in all that
you do.